Skewl はじまりました

School has started, Jan. 23. '08. Hard to believe it's
2008, my senility has caused me to write 2007 on a few
occasions. Some teachers are wide awake, some are extremely
sarcastic, but overall I'm happy I changed to ENVS major,
Business just wasn't passionate or stirring. It's REALLY cold
these days, and I've notice! Why am I wearing shorts today???
I applied for a security job but no response yet. My school
schedule is pretty random, meaning not enough wide open
space for working as I would have liked...what to do....
I saw my old roommmate in my JPNS class, amusing. Small
world after all. さとこすけさん、さしぶりだね。。。
Yesterday we had our first KSA booth (Korean club) trying to
attract new members. Guess what? It was all guys standing
at the booth so of COURSE only guys came up ARG! Come on
Jaewon shi! I told them...arg. San Jose is boring, yes
it's repetitive, I want to live internationally now, NOW,
and never come back until everything I know has changed...
찰자...

Evolution of Society

So I've thought about this a lot before...
Every industrialized country reaches a critical
point where the basics of life, food, warmth, a bed
to sleep on at night, are all passe and given.
Once countries such as Japan, Korea, US, and
Europe, basically all those countries turn to entertainment
consumerism and commercialism. Everyone knows
this and its prevalent in the everday world. This begs
the question, whats the meaning of life? Surely
it can't just be to appease carnal desires and make
money...

The "Metro" Hotel

An excursion

Got to stay in a little hotel overnight courtesy of my company ;)
It was a nice little getaway in a micro town most people don't know
exists......haha. Here's a few pics as well... Well it was
just training a few ppl in Petaluma..simple and straightforward..
Think I'll go clubbing tonight even though I really don't like it...
Beats sitting on my butt @ home all night haha lame!

I got a bug

So i'm talking to a friend, and I got a bug! I got
an itch I can't scratch so to speak. After you travel
and bust your freakin' bubble open you'll see a whole
new plane, and you CAN"T go back....NOooooo way. Frustrating
thing is...guess what!??! You reallllllly cant find
people like yourself up on those higher planes.
Not at all boasting when i say this stuff, its just that
you'r eyes are opened BEYOND going back. For me
its like I NEED a mentor, someone to give me a mass
blood transfusion!! Where are the people

Anybody out there feel me? What am I supposed to do???

The best relationship between a guy and girl is one where
both ppl push each other to realize their full potential.
If you aren't with that kinda person then lemme break it
to ya...you're wasting ur time. Don't get me wrong, I've been
there done that lived in a bubble and watched it pop, all
that. After awhile you just realize, its boring! You need
that push from someone to make you better! LIFE is all about
growth, if you're not growing mentally, pushing your boundaries
then you're pushing up daisies folks. You gotta LEARN something
new. For me its languages. I've studied Korean, Japanese, and
Mandarin and its my LIFE. Languages are like a blood transfusion
into my life. I can't stop because its what gives me life. This
is how I feel, this is how I think. It's a process of evolution
in one direction FORWARD, feel me? If you think like this or wanna
talk add me on msn > eclansky@hotmail.com. Well its like my insides
are busting, I'm glad I keep this log to record how I feel cuz
right now If i didnt write I'd EXPLODE!!!! I'm sitting here
feeling something I can't control....I want out!! I wanna meet
peopel that feel like I do...HELLOOO WHERE ARE THEY?????
Is everybody in san Jose content to just work and do the same
hamster routine over and over?????? NOT ME!!! bust that bubble people!
All this must sound like crazy talk but this is me....more later.

'Nother day nother dolla

I'm looking to find a new job for sure. The old one is just
not teaching me anything new, time for a change!
Yesterday I ordered transcripts from 3 schools for my
Korea App, wow fun fun! Feelin' a bit tired today for
some reason. The weather is depressing... grr. I wanna
ride my baby! (motorcyle). Poor girl out there in the cold...
Someday I'll put her in my room haha. I made spaghetti
in almost the best way I could. I took Trader Joes marinara
sauce, sauteed the onions in grapeseed oil w/ a little red wine
till translucent (but still a bit crunchy) Added marinara on top of onions.
Added freshly ground pepper, and a "pasta seasoning" mix (love it)
to wake up the bland marinara. And thats it! Not too difficult
and very tasty! Next time I wanna add sausage and mushrooms to the
sauce, I love chunky sauce, none of this slippery stuff. haha

Whats a guy gonna do on winter break huh? Cook and look for jobs of course!
I wanna get more exercise actually but this weather kills it.
Going to the gym is an option...hmm...
ほんとにかんこくごをべんきょうしたらどうですか？
またね！

1/8/08 _ blazin''''

Today is like wow. I started the second Korean class today and I pwomise to do better... I really want to actually cuz of my really hopefuly gonna turn out plans of going to Korea in August. After talking with a friend who remains nameless to protect the identity, I realize how much San Jose feels like a coffin, or rather my life in general. I mean are most ppl content with the same o'l routine Every DAY?!?! not me! I've had tons of jobs, love gettng addrenalin rushes off my motorcycle but haven't found where to plug in yet. Some part of me doesn't fit in here and wants out, is screaming to get out?!? Anybody feel me?

When I was in China, or Korea, or Japan for that matter I felt alive, on fire. It's a bug/virus. I regret, truly regret not writing down exactly how i felt after my trip in China, maybe i put it down in a paper diary somewhere or electronically, dont remember exactly. All I know is I wanna ignite that same fire that seems to have burned down WAY too much. I call it suffocation. Granted life can't be a constant roller coaster but I try to turn mine into that. You only live once! Got that?! More later...Gotta be faithful to write this thing....