Life is journey, duh. What I need to grow as a person,
well I'm not getting it here. I realized partially why
I'm not satisfied with my life, its because I haven't
foudn the bright open-minded people who've traveled and
stretched themselves, because it really is a one-way trip.
That itch I can't seem to scratch, the part of me that
refuses that cant be satisfied by my current lifestyle
is what I WILL KEEP ALIVE until I reach the next step in
my life. Stagnancy=death so moving forward is the only option
right now. I'm not satisfied with my life thus I study abroad.
I will feed this craving until I'm satisfied, until I reach
the next plateau or something drastic happens,etc. I
know I think really differently and most people don't give
a damn and are content with living a so-so life in relatively
the same area, or whatever. I'm really disappointed with SJSU,
I wish I would have known it to be so unstimulating and as
dead of an atmosphere BEFORE I went there... I just
wanted college to be a place where I meet stimulating
and vibrant people that inspire me to grow to new heights
and into whose lives I can breath some fresh air as well...
What can I do?
I want to stretch myself/grow, but don't feel I can do that
here in SJ...what do I do??? Damn... This is what I really feel
and think deep inside, call it depression, I call it
questioning myself and trying to find out what makes up
a substantial life. Until next time...I keep searching and
moving forward...
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